Phantom Dreams


When my two children were young, my husband would often leave for 3-month deployments aboard a nuclear submarine. During his absence, my children and I enjoyed the live theater, symphonies, and ballet. We read poetry, books, and attended museums. We planted flowers and had sleep-overs. And we laughed a lot.

When their father and I separated, my children and I moved here and there, eventually landing near my sister in central Illinois. I went to work at Bradley University to supplement our income. Money was tight, and I no longer could stay home with my children. I had to work. We survived with determination, budgets, and with the generosity of my sister and brother-in-law. Because we loved the arts, I took advantage of the perks of working at Bradley and took my children to free and affordable events on campus. The university’s arts and music departments gave us the opportunity to see many live performances and exhibits.

One day I read in the newspaper that The Phantom of the Opera was coming to Peoria, Illinois. There would be no reduced tickets; it wasn’t a Bradley event. And on my budget, I couldn’t afford three tickets. I had an idea though. If I put aside a specific amount of money from my next two paychecks, I’d have enough to purchase two good seats for Phantom. And I wanted excellent seats.

The night of the performance, excitement swelled like a musical crescendo around my son and daughter. They showered and dressed in their best clothes, while I stood outside, wrapped in a quilt, watching fat snowflakes leak from the sky. The snow had just begun to whisper over our yard. When the cold had chilled me to the bone and the shivering wouldn’t stop, I went inside, turned on a stove-top burner, and put on the tea kettle.

My children were as beautiful to me that night as they would ever be. Their excitement created magic, and that magic swelled around me and wrapped me in its arms. My son and daughter glowed from the inside out. On that night, snowflakes, fat and fluffy, soft as angels’ feathers, fell slowly from the sky, and we moved around inside life’s snow globe.

My children rushed downstairs and waited for me to finish my tea. Anticipation filled our house. None of us had seen Phantom. I handed my daughter, the oldest, their tickets and asked them to sit on the sofa for instructions. Don’t talk to strangers. Meet me after the performance at the exact location where I drop you off.  Don’t separate from each other no matter what. If one of you must go to the bathroom, the other will wait outside the door.  

During the drive to the civic center, I again reminded them of the rules. They laughed at me for worrying. Having been to many performances over the years, they reminded me they knew how to behave. We were all giddy. Their hands floated before them as they talked, as though they were catching melodies in the air. Several years had passed since my husband and I had separated. The children were older, but they were still children. Their voices were poetry to me.

The snow was still coming down when we reached the civic center. I pulled the car close to the building and watched my children grab hands and run straight to the entrance. Before they reached the doors, they turned and waved to me. My daughter, her red hair falling over her face, blew me a kiss. My son waved, his hand high in the air. I laughed out loud, and smiled all the way home.

I went back to the civic center to get them early and parked as close to the entrance as I could get. When the performance ended, snow had covered the city. Trees, shrubs, cars, and homes wore fresh white blankets.

Trailing behind a large crowd, my children exited the civic center. They spotted the car. Wrapped in a lovely spell of magic, I watched them. My son. My daughter. Virgin snow caressed their hair, melted on their flushed faces. They slid into the car squealing, talking at once, sizzling with excitement.

Taking the long way home, even though it meant a longer drive in the snow, I listened to my children describe the performance: the music, the soloists, the costumes, the set, the actors, and the chandelier. Their words were damp with the wonder and awe found only in children. And though their hair, faces, and shoulders were dusted in snow, a light burned in their eyes.

This is about the age my daughter was at the time.

To this day, I’ve never seen The Phantom of the Opera except through the eyes of my children. And that’s the best way to see some things–through the eyes of children.

Years have passed. My children are now grown. They travel to faraway places without me and have seen Phantom a few times. They still love the theatre and have been to more Broadway shows than I will ever see in my lifetime. They perform on stage, singing, acting, dancing. They work behind the scenes of performances. And sometimes, they are in the audience watching others perform.

My birthday present from my children and my husband this year was a surprise that took me back in time. Four tickets with excellent seats to The Phantom of the Opera at the Fox Theatre in Atlanta. We’ll be there in a few days. I will see Phantom for the first time, and I’ll see it with my family, my children and my husband of twelve years. My son and daughter never forgot the snowy night when I stayed home and they saw the The Phantom of the Opera. Their gift to me, along with a note reminding me of that splendid night so many years ago, made me cry and swell with excitement.

My son was this big when he went to see Phantom for the first time. He is now grown.


I hate to see the arts cut. Yes, I do.

Brenda Sutton Rose is the author of Dogwood Blues.


Change has come to Dogwood, Georgia, dividing the town, friends against friends, neighbors against neighbors. With the liquor referendum on the ballot,  signs, declaring VOTE YES, others declaring VOTE NO, many signs as tall as billboards, pop up in yards throughout the city limits. All of Dogwood has an opinion. And the local newspaper, Dogwood News, reports it all.

When Boone Marshall , a blues musician who  inherits the family farm after his father’s death, brings home a new bride not long after his first wife’s suicide, Nell Sauls, the town busybody, goes bat crazy spreading rumors that have no substance. And when Kevin Kilmer, award-winning author, moves back to Dogwood, the town where he’d grown up, and brings with him a husband, Nell makes it her business to drop gossip like bird poop up and down the historic district.

Compared to Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Cafe, to Cold Sassy Tree, and to the movie Steel MagnoliasDogwood Blues is as southern as a story can be.

DOGWOOD BLUES  by Brenda Sutton Rose was nominated for a 2015 Georgia Author of the Year Award for First Novel. She has been the guest at numerous books clubs that chose Dogwood Blues as their book for the month. She has taught writing workshops at conferences for new and upcoming writers.  Click here to purchase Dogwood Blues.

Book signing for Dogwood Blues near Atlanta.

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6 thoughts on “Phantom Dreams

  1. A moving story that leaves all smiling. Much emotional warmth comes through by way of what it meant to your children, but more especially to you. As a reader I sensed a tension in leaving the children off at the theatre, only to have it so warmly washed away in the reuniting.


  2. It’s exciting to hear of a family so bonded by the arts. That is also my deep heart’s cry being a music major myself and understandng those feelings not appreciated by others not motivated in the same way. But it goes deeper to the sacrifices and a commonality of love we all share as parents and members of the human race


  3. Brenda. this brought tears to my eyes and joy to my heart! I saw those snowflakes, the excitement of your children, and the sacrifice of a loving mother. The arts are the difference between humanity and inhumanity!


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